Beside myself

I thought I was a strong person until something, something I can't control knocked me off my feet. I am beside myself with worry. I know that I worry too much by nature, but I can't shake this terrible feeling. My handsome boy who is soon to turn 2 needs surgery. He was born with a CCAM. It is a cyst within the lung. We found out about it at our 20 week ultrasound. We need to have it removed due to the possibility of it turning malignant years from now. They need to remove the entire lower right lobe which shocked me. I didn't realize how large the cyst has grown. The last report from March '08 (which we just received results from 2 months ago, that is aggravating in itself) indicated that it is 3 inches in diameter. So if you read this post, please say a prayer for my little one and for my family to keep us strong. I will be staying with him nightly and am scared to death of what I will see him go through. March 6 is the date, so I am keeping St. Gerard close to my heart.

Thank you.